i am confused

im jz an ordinary person to u ?

i need an answer

i dont have the guts to ask you

it mayb worse than now

my TRIP ! love this TRIP :)

went to kl on wed nite .. v started our journey at 10.30 lidat -.- so late .. reach ipoh around 11+ n v had 'nga choi kai' .. as our supper xD yummy ! ^^ n finally reached aunt kl hse at 2+ .. that day i slept at 4 or 5am due to hp boiling LOL for about 2h .. huhuuu ~

woke up at 1.. str8 on9 .. at 1st i thought i couldnt have the chance to on9 bcoz there's no wi-fi, no streamys, ntg in the hse although i got bring own lappy go ~ on the living room table, i was wondering whose that laptop belongs to ? with DIGI BROADBAND thr ! wooo hooo ~ @.@ have a short on9 then headed to genting at 5.. reach thr around 7 .. since its holiday, all hotels in genting sure full d .. n v din even book any of them n v jz str8 drive to thr .. but v r fortunate bcoz v had d last unoccupied room in THEME PARK HOTEL .. wahaha !

had a light rest in d room, v went to 1st world at 9.30 .. mama went casino, papa n bros went indoor .. n me ? SHOPPING XD was thought of just window shopping bcoz things thr r pretty expensive ..

i told papa i saw a bag, quite nice ..

he ask whr is it ?

i told him rm100+ worr

he replied 'ya laa, whr is it ?

u reli buy for me loo ?

bring me go laaa

*went in converse shop .. choose for a moment*

paa.. this bag nice ?

bro : walao .. i buy at pasar malam only rm20, 30 .. here rm100+

me : *swt 99* urs 1 fake laa .. ini betul mia :D paa .. rm99.90 worr

ok .. *take out rm100* nahhh ..

1st thing i bought .. CONVERSE BAG XD i nvr bought such expensive bag b4 .. n i was shock when he got no objection :)

after that i shop alone .. went bum city .. bought a singlet n 3 bracelets .. bracelets DAMN cheap niaaaa .. 2 for rm10 :) another is in different rack so its rm10 ..

around 12 went back hotel n get rest .. at 1, me n bro went oldtown n yamcha .. saw 1 punk, emo, ewwww guy ..=.= its my opinion .. thats actually by bro fren .. i also know him .. dont even like his style .. duhss ! went for a walk with them .. they walk, i folo, while boiling hp xD bout 3-4am me n bro went back room n get our slp ..

woke up at 8+ .. went buffet in resort hotel with mama n small bro .. im still missing the taste of hot milk with cornflakes n koko crunch xD it was nice n warm .. aww ! after that its around 10.15 .. v went shopping again in 1st world .. this time .. bought a pair of earrings from padini n 2 pairs of shoes in vincci, same goes to mama .. but both her shoes is the same type, only different colour .. for sure, i took 1 of hers xD equivalent to 3 pairs i already had bought :D

head back to room again bcoz check out time is 12 .. get our luggage prepared n place them in d car .. after that shopping again xD i controlled myself now .. i bought too much d .. LOL .. but i failed .. mama more crazy -.- v went vincci, n bought 2 more pairs of shoe OF THE SAME TYPE AGAIN .. lol .. that saleswoman also awkward at thr .. walk inside pdi .. i bought 2 tee xD n then .. what elses huh ? ermmm .. oh not ..

after that both my parents went casino.. leaving me n young bro -.- for sure i need to accompany him to play those indoor game n so on .. duhs ! sienn .. with all those shopping bags, damn heavy ..zzz.. when his $ ran out, i persuade him to accompany me go shopping again .. asking him want buy necklace or not ? xD i brought him to bum city .. n let him choose..xD this time i bought 2 bracelets sumo n a necklace .. but all are not mine :) he bought 1.. lidat already cost me rm80 -.-

waited for parents, v went mushroom farm had our meal at 5.. n then went back 1st world.. mama told papa that i saw a nike bag.. nice n attractive .. cost rm 189.90 .. LOL actually is mama saw it n compared that bag with d converse bag that i bought .. she said this nike is even nicer than converse .. swt ~ she kept ask me want buy or not .. i remain silent .. with my face showing 'i want that bag' xD ( for sure i wont say N-O : NO to anythings .. futhermore .. ITS NIKE WEHH ! ) bcoz she won a thousand+ jz now, she took me to nike shop, n bought that bag xD after discount, it cost rm150.. another NIKE BAG i owned :)

v started our jouney back to taiping at 8 .. reach at 12 ..

as a conclusion .. i spent almost rm500 this all this stuff -.- only me .. neither of my family members.. im happy with it .. n a bit heartache .. i cant blif i spent so much in within a day .. i need to use my $ wisely now ! say NO to bistro .. say NO to starbucks .. say NO to loafing :D i knw i wont bcoz i knw i will fail .. hehe

Love

every1 keep posting bout love love love n d only LOVE ..

is that love makes all of us feeling sorrowful ?

actually .. it just depends on ur attitude towards love ..

sum is just dont want to b lonely .. or wat can v say is GREEDY .. this ppl will just keep finding for another target str8 after break .. find n find n find .. wat for ? searching for an feel-less relationship .. it wont bear any good consequences .. this kind of relationship is jz giving u a short term fun, satisfaction ..

mayb u r reading this or mayb not .. im jz telling wat i feel .. i dont meant to hurt u .. u wanted to knw the truth also rite ? for the 1st time i saw u .. u gave me a good impression .. a good, gentle guy .. doesnt loaf a lot .. really.. i dont lie .. n i was shock when u told me u r in 5sc2 .. but i was quite proud of u ..:D

n now ? u had totally change .. as i always tell u .. u kept revive my anger .. not only me .. same goes to the other surround u .. when u r with ur 1st, u were like showing off that u got gf .. mayb u dont mean it but ur action tells us that .. ya.. i knw u r proud to have a gf like her .. after break .. u r totally collapse.. i tot u need a long time to recover .. but, here comes d 2nd 1.. n break again .. gosh ! both u knw jz for FEW day .. is FEW .. n its DAY instead of week or month or year.. u r starting a relationship without knowing who they are, wat type of gal.. u r jz doubt for a short moment n accept whenever they propose to u.. now 1st trying to recover with u .. for me .. u r treating J as ur spare tyre .. ahh ! i dont wat to mention any of them sumo ..

another thing is .. now their things, especially d 2nd 1 .. they r not urs anymore .. u dont need to care .. as friend.. wat u can do is advise .. they neglect, their problem .. its their life .. wat they want to do with it, they dont appreciate it, its their problem ..

mayb .. if u talk less bout gals in front of us mayb b a good thing .. u want us to b ur listener .. v can .. but wat v listen is all bout gal n gal n ONLY gal .. which v not interested in ur relationship thing .. dont say i always shoot u .. i reli cannot stand of ur attitude sumtimes ..

i think u may not agree with wat i write ..

P/S : dont get mad :)

ohh .. n 1 more .. dont always say i dont treat u as my fren =.= i knw .. u try to b good to us .. even the things u had done .. like watching mv .. u would choose to watch 2nd time with us .. just a waste of $ .. u r my fren .. but is not close fren .. u want me to tell u my things, but i cant .. duno y .. not to say i dont trust .. u r not the person i can share things with .. i will remember to call u the next time v watch .. everytime .. i promise :)

currently is in starbuck n its 12.27am .. huhuu ~ my bdate xD

ytd is students' 1st day of holiday ! LOL .. so as usual n of coz most of us would b outing .. futhermore .. its after exam .. v shud take a REST after a critical brainstorming @.@

ytd i went ts n watch ALICE IN WONDERLAND ! nice mv.. bside me n sy is kc n ys .. == .. v r stuck in d mid.. kc n ys watch this mv cartoon b4 .. they knw everything n can predict wats next in that mv =.= swttt ! anyway .. its a nice mv .. mayb for guys its childish xD

v went supper at siang mlm .. vic, navin, sy, n 1 starbuck worker .. :) u knw wat ? guess who i saw at thr ? =.= i saw that 'angel' =.= or wat can v say is bitch ! k .. v went n sit to the table jz next to them .. ohh gosh .. i sumo facing her .. sy staring at her .. he told me that she reli 360degree change .. WTH ? i prettier or she prettier ? xD after that i see her bf .. peeping him .. n i see at sy face .. n i tell him .. 'sy .. now only i realise that u r such an ugly 1' .. hahahaaa !

get back at 2am .. cant on9 .. stupid streamyx .. y u r bringing me such trouble ? T.T

7 march 2010, 3.40am

alright .. im still awaken .. i could get my slp .. d 1st reason is bcoz i am full now xD i jz had my supper with vic n jc at siang mlm .. 2nd reason is i need to salute my moody feeling again n again n again..==

as usual .. i went out again xD almost, ermmm.. not almost.. is TOTALLY ! every sat im going out .. to SENTRAL .. ohh goshh !! its gonna b my habit.. but i went out for reason today .. i went choc fountain n fruit ice-blended to ask for sumting .. in addition .. another purpose of goin thr is to STUDY SEJ with ys xD but then .. u knw ~ can we study ? v r chit-chatting more than study .. playing comp.. on9 .. talking craps .. duhss ! nvm .. i jz hope for pass for sej paper ==

i had a murtabak ayam at pelita for my dinner ! huhuuu ~ quite nice but quite a large quantity for me == yet .. today i can fin 1 by myself xD i guess its a long time i din eat fin my meal ..

today i watched true legend .. with jack n jc .. midnite show .. huhuuu ~ pity jack coz he watched twice .. n i ignored him although he jz sit bside me .. pity him ..

after d mv .. jack waiting for car while jc n me went to toilet .. after that v head back oldtown to find him but he had gone .. then .. i saw 2 lengluis standing at d 2nd floor of d tesco carpark .. waving their hand n calling us.. it seems like calling jc .. coz its impossible for same sex strangers whistling except if she is les ? huhuuu ~ v went n see properly .. mana tau .. its 4 38 ppl .. jeson, keat hoe, huey ying n yu hui.. they keep watching me all the time n i was wondering wat they were doing thr ? in this middle of the nite ? anyway ~ im goin to end now ..

byeeee X)

bla bla blaaaaaaaa .. when i was schooling, i feel wana on9 .. but when i had on, i got ntg to do .. n i find it extreme bored =.=

by the way .. talking bout moral folio or kerja amal or wat so ever .. this year .. i need to do 8 essays n 4 kerja amal AGAIN .. last year essays all simply write without insert any of moral nilai ~ same goes to kerja amal .. v've jz pretending taking pics.. seems like ss-ing more ~ deadline of folio is by d end of may .. hmms.. i hope i can do it well n hand up in time .. huhuuu ~

i got this intention to write this post in d late nite coz of sum1..

infront of ppl, frens.. he would act like ntg.. he can b jz an ordinary person.. play, enjoy.. but when he is alone.. during d middle of the nite.. he started to feel depressed.. it was quite scary when he started to b moody.. i wish to help.. i helped him to find wat he want.. i try to find.. at least to satisfy, i wish he could knw wat her feelings.. in at least both of u might solve ur probs ? i guess so..

try to make a change.. have a chance to talk bout without any arguments.. compromise.. tolerate.. i can feel that both of u 2 are still deeply in love with each other.. actually.. im quite jealous.. i wish i could find 1 like u 2..

i wish u 2 could understand one another .. try to make a perfect choice which best for u 2.. nites ..